.::.Breathe and Think.::.

Kalau mengikut Kamus Dewan Edisi Keempat terbitan Dewan Bahasa dan Pustaka yang ada tercongok kat rak buku gabak dalam bilik ni, Ustazah tu maknanya; guru agama (perempuan).

Okay,tu cuma muqaddimah je..

I couldn't quite remember how many times I've been in the situation, but there's this one time that I remembered the most.
I was at a hospital, nak melawat ex-classmate time kat CFS PJ who got into an accident. Me and my friends entered the elevator and i saw a bunch of kids kat dalam lif tu with their parents..or was it..relatives? -shrugs- couldn't remember.eheh. And as they saw us, i heard one of the kids said to the other, "Wahh..ramainya ustazah kat sini.." with a hint of sarcasm.

To be completely and honestly honest..what the kid had said irked me..or in another word, i felt annoyed.
Oh..before i continue, maybe i should tell anyone who bothered to read this that i wear a 50" tudung,sometime 55"..both tudung Akel and tudung bawal..and so do most of my friends who were with me that day. So..you kinda get the idea why the kid had called us ustazah..right? :D and oh..we were wearing baju kurungs and jubah that day if i were not mistaken, sebab baru balik dr kelas.hahaaa
ok..sambung cerita..

Irked and annoyed (same je la tu) were what i felt...not because i dislike the title 'ustazah' or something..but because what i had in mind was, the kid was being sarcastic, seeing us wearing tudung besar & berbaju kurung macam tu.....OR..maybeee...i might be thinking too much at that time..ntah2 budak tu inesen je cakap camtu becoz in the kid's mind..tudung besar/labuh + baju kurung/jubah = ustazah kat sekolah. MAYBE the kid (i keep on using 'the kid' bcoz i couldn't remember whether it's a girl or a boy.i have TERRIBLE MEMORY.oh yes.) didn't mean to be sarcastic at all..maybe it's just me being paranoid..just maybe.
So, the point is..
I've come to realize that i shouldn't feel annoyed even if budak tu memang saje sarkastik that time..i could have taken it as a du'a that one day I (and maybe my friends as well) can actually become an ustazah..an ustazah for my friends..an ustazah at home,for my family,my children in the future..bukanlah maksudnya nak ngaja agama secara formal macam kat sekolah tu..but maybe to teach and share any religious knowledge (read: Islamic knowledge) which can lead us straight to His blessing and jannah. Insya Allah.

But then again...another confession..
Since i started my schooldays..i've been surrounded by people who have the same 'fashion' or 'style' like me (buat2 paham la ye), dari sekolah rendah sampai le uni. So, what i've been wearing was never an odd thing when i'm with them. But as i grow older...and yes,i'm definitely OLDER now, bila dah lagi banyak berjalan2 kat luar,more exposed to other people..i can't help but to notice that there are some people who'd still stare and look weirdly at me like i'm some kind of..er..alien?Sigh.
But (bape kali but dah ni..hahaha)..no worries!i shall prevail! eh..tetibe :P
Semoga Allah Taala beri kekuatan untuk terus istiqamah dan berusaha untuk memperbaiki diri..coz i know, i'm still lacking a lot..A LOT..

Imam Muslim meriwayatkan di dalam Shahihnya dari jalan Abu Hurairah radhiyallahu’anhu, dia berkata; Rasulullah shallallahu ‘alaihi wa sallam bersabda, “Islam datang dalam keadaan asing. Dan ia akan kembali menjadi asing sebagaimana kedatangannya. Maka beruntunglah orang-orang yang asing itu.” (HR. Muslim [145] dalam Kitab al-Iman.Syarh Muslim, 1/234).

Semoga kita sama2 tergolong dalam golongan orang2 yg asing tu..amin~

WARNING: POST PANJANG..NGAAAAAA


Tiba-tiba teringat sesuatu..suatu catatan daripada satu pengisian..
Buku nota bercorak jalur2 berbagai warna diambil dari tempat asalnya;rak buku bertentang dengan katil. Dibelek-belek muka suratnya hingga ditemui apa yang dicari...

"Every pious person has a past"
"A sinner has a future"

Syaikh Dawood Butt said those words sebagai ala2 muqaddimah for his session that evening..and actually that session's title was.."Me and My Other Half" *cough2*.Don't get me wrong..i'm not going to rant about camne nak pilih pasangan and whatnot..at least,that won't be the main topic here..ahaks~

Still..it's interesting how the syaikh started his session/talk with those words. The moment he said those words, i could felt how true they were..

"Every pious person has a past"
"A sinner has a future"

Sejarah silam yang hitam or tak berapa putih..dark sides..if tak semua orang pun,most of us have those, right? Mungkin ada orang yg dulu pernah bercouple tanpa kenal batas, takde kesedaran nak tutup aurat properly, tak kenal or buat2 tak kenal yang haram & yang dilarang..and the list goes on..Tapi tak selamanya mereka2 yg buat semua tu akan bergelumang dlm tu kan?

Ada je yg,bak kata Inche Gabbana tauke blog APG, disapa atau ditegur oleh mak cik 'hidayah' dan alhamdulillah berubah jadi baik..and like my sister, Yah said, and i'm sure most of you dah lama agree with this statement; mereka2 yg pernah jadi 'jahat' or 'nakal' ni, once diorang berubah..as in bertaubat dan yg sewaktu dengannya..diorang bole jadi lg bagus,lg baik,lg soleh/solehah dr insan2 yg dah sedia baik dr dulu..err..i mean insan2 yg tak penah buat benda2 dasat la..
You know why?because..if according to me la..their guilt will make them more ikhlas untuk dekatkan diri pada Allah SWT..the thought of their dosas (read = dosa2) will make them lagi bersungguh2 untuk bertaubat..the feeling of once being distance from Him will make them wants to mengenali Allah SWT dgn lagi dalam..tak ke? 

On the other hand..the way i see it..or the way i personally feel..orang2 yg dah sedia 'baik' dari dulu ni, they think they don't have to do better ibadah-wise,character-wise etc..senang citer yg rasa dah dalam "comfort zone" ni la (tersedak jap). Rasa ibadah dah cukup..rasa diri dah cukup baik..but actually,i f you look deeper, there's still a lot more holes or gaps or..hm..room (?) for improvement. Iman kita sentiasa naik dan turun..ye dak? And sebenarnye..bagi insan2 yg dah ada dalam comfort zone ni sejak lahir lagi,eventho tak pernah ade rekod buat jenayah or dosa berat2, ade jek benda2 'tak best' yg dibuat..be it small or big.examples are; mengumpat,perasan diri bagus(read - 'ujub), tak jage adab dgn ibu bapa kawan2 or guru2,suka membazir... tho all the things mentioned just now tak dipandang berat by most people..tp it really can have negative effects on us..

So..insan2 yg dlm comfort zone tu pun kena selalu refleksi dan koreksi diri (e eh..i mean myself pon included la..) sebab kita tak tau amalan yg kita buat tu betul2 diterima Allah ke..?kita dah dapat redha Dia ke..?kita dah betul2 tutup aurat properly ke...?kita dah guna masa kita dengan sewajarnya ke..?kita dah tunaikan tanggungjawab amar makruf nahi mungkar ke..?Gulp.(eh..tertiru gaya orang tu pulak.eheh). 

*Lap peluh* Huhu..'ter'panjang plak post yg ni :-P 
Kesimpulannya..jangan pandang orang2 yg dlm kategori 'teruk' ni macam pandang kucing kurap or like they're some low-life..sbb mana tau,bila Allah SWT dah bukak pintu hati diorang,diorang bole lg jadi lg super duper hebat dari kita..and..bagi mereka2 yg Allah SWT dah pelihara dari buat benda2 dasat like i mentioned before..bersyukurlah..and, bila dah ada 'tag' baik or rasa cam diri tak penah pun buat benda bukan2, kena ingat yg tu bukan tiket utk melepaskan diri dari memperbaiki diri..memperelokkan diri..(dalam mau kira ye..bukan luaran..eh,tp bab aurat tu include skali la :D)

p/s: This is only MY interpretation of ayat2 Syaikh Dawood tu..mungkin ada explanation/interpretation yg lain skit according to others..

Kalau ada tersilap kata..mintak ampun..Ramadhan Kareem! (lg 16 hari je tinggal T_T)

Assalammulaikum w.b.t
Here goes my rant..it's been a while ey..


Dah seminggu bertapa di rumah coz it's been a week since sem break started. and i've spent my first week of sem break dgn pulun baca novel2 Hlovate :P All the novels are good tapi ade 1 buku dia ni which made me reminiscing my school days..i'm talking about "Tunas"..dunno yg tu novel dia yg ke berape..hehe..


Reading through the book..teringat zaman2 sekolah menengah dulu..especially time form 4,form 5 coz the book tells about the life of budak2 form 4 and form 5 kat sekolah asrama. and i can say that i learn a few things pasal life budak2 asrama coz i've never been to any boarding school..neither do any of my siblings. Semua adik-beradik sekolah harian jek ^_^ Cam seronok jek duk asrama kalo ikutkan citer dalam buku tu. Go through thick and thin dgn kawan2 etc. Prep la segala bagai.. (I have a confession to make: kat skola Maahad dulu mmg budak2 asrama mesti setel sume homework..budak2 luar ni yg slalu terkulat2 tak siap homework,termasuk la diri sendiri ni.hehe)


Another thought that came to me while reading the book was..kalo la bole patah balik masa..nak experience balik zaman sekolah tu coz i felt that i can do better or..more like i should have done better..untuk pelajaran,dengan kawan2..dengan cikgu2..i felt like i should have make more friends, engage more with people especially my teachers, do more co-cu activities (lol) and be more..hm..open (?) *Sigh* ni la manusia ek..ungrateful and always filled with regrets.meh~ Well, honestly, i think i'm a different person compared to masa zaman sekolah..ke..sendiri prasan ni?hohoho..


But, all in all..my school days especially during upper form were not that bad..though not nearly as exciting and colourful as depicted in  the Hlovate's novel -shrug- At least ade la experience masuk pertandingan roket air, kuiz sejarah, kuiz kerjaya..sukan..er..memang wassalam la :P sounds nerd much?well..i AM a nerd la kot.haha..eh jap..ade je ape join kawad and karate..so,takdela nerd mane ek? eheh.


Whatever it is..memang rindu sangat zaman sekolah lepas bace Tunas tu..but,we have to cherish the present,right? Do the best you can at the moment so that you won't have regrets when you reminisce this moment later..Nanti da keje teringat zaman kat uni pulak.haha~Besides, a lot of people said that the best part in life slalunye jadik time kat uni..hmm..depends pada orang jugak kot.


P/s: Baru je lepas chat dgn kawan sekolah..dapat jugak lepas rindu~ :)

Polymorphism (from what i've learnt in D.D.*) = the ability of a drug substance (solid crystalline) to exist in more than one form.Or to put it in simple words, the ability of something to be in more than one form.


So..what do i mean with polymorphism of rezeki?rezeki pon ade polymorhs ke? :D
from what i understand and believe..yes..
Rezeki tu ada berbagai bentuk dan rupa..sampaikan kadang2 kita tak sedar sesuatu benda tu sebenarnya rezeki yg Allah Taala kurniakan kat kita.


Kita selalu beranggapan rezeki tu apa yg kita makan, wang ringgit,harta benda, anak2, rumah dan yg sewaktu dengannya..tapi sebenarnye skop rezeki tu lagi luas. setiap apa yg kita tengah nikmati, baik yg kita sedar atau tak adalah rezeki..
Ilmu itu adalah rezeki, dapat hidayah dan kemampuan untuk beribadah adalah rezeki..nikmat kesihatan dan kelapangan adalah rezeki...


What's more important is that, kita wajib percaya yg memberi rezeki hanyalah Allah SWT sahaja. Manusia selalu takut untuk memberi sbb takut apa yg ada pada dia akan berkurang..padahal,akan bertambah lg sebenarnya, dek kerana pahala dan jugak keberkatan darinya. Bak kata tuan imam dlm column "Beduk Diketuk" (majalah Solusi) ; rezeki yg berkat tu, walaupun sikit,still mencukupi and kalau banyak,boleh diagih-agihkan..One more thing, manusia ni jugak takut atau kedekut untuk spend masa untuk benda2 kebaikan cthnye mcm dengar ceramah, solat jemaah kat masjid, pegi majlis2 ilmu, etc. Alasannya...masa tu nak digunakan untuk study, kerja dan hal2 duniawi yg lain..We have to remember that,yg menciptakan masa adalah Allah SWT, yg Tuan Punya masa adalah Allah SWT, yg memberikan kita nikmat masa adalah Allah SWT..so,kalo kita gunakan masa tu untuk jalan Allah..insya Allah, Allah akan "tambahkan" masa untuk kita..camne plak tu? :D dgn cara, keberkatan masa tu sendiri la..^_^


Kesimpulannya, rezeki tu ada dlm pelbagai bentuk..dan sebenarnya, terlalu byk rezeki yg Allah Taala dah limpahkan kpd kita,cuma kita je yg tak brape nak sedar. Jadi, jom sama2 mensyukuri rezeki dan nikmat yg Allah berikan! :) 


*p.s: DD = Dosage Design

"Wahai hamba yang berbuat maksiat, kembalilah kepada Rabb-mu!Wahai hamba yang lari, kembalilah kepada Pemilik-mu!Wahai hamba yang membelot, kembalilah kepada Tuan-mu!tuan-mu memanggilmu setiap siang dan malam, Dia berkata "Ke mana kamu akan pergi?Apakah kamu mempunyai Rabb selain diri-Ku?Barangsiapa mendekat kepada-Ku sejengkal, pastilah Aku mendekat kepadanya sehasta, barangsiapa mendekat kepada-Ku sehasta, pastilah Aku mendekat kepadanya sedepa, barangsiapa mendekat kepada-Ku dengan berjalan maka Aku akan medekat kepadanya dengan berlari"

Assalammualaikum~

At the age of 20...

Okay..so this year..i'm 19
and believe it or not..i feel..quite old already..hahaha(ke mmg da agak tua sbnrnye?XD)

According to Wikipedia,"Jack of all trades, master of none" is a figure of speech used in reference to a generalist: a person that is competent with many skills but is not outstanding in any particular one.

A Jack of all trades may be a master of integration, as such an individual knows enough from many learned trades and skills to be able to bring their disciplines together in a practical manner, and is not a specialist.

That is how i see myself...

I know how to do quite a lot of things but never am an expert in any though..let me give you an example,i mean..examples...i know how to play chess, carom, bowling(ok la..), badminton. I know how to sew, bake..what else?ok..xdela byk sgt..just quite a few :D..i had experienced things that I think not all my friends had had, like 'rempit'-ing with go-kart, riding ATV, doing archery and horse-riding..i didn't mean to boast or anything..i'm just saying that I've done those things..but I'm not good in any of those..hahaha..how I wish I can be an expert in something..anything..look..i'm even struggling with this post..i'm just not quite a writer like our Rai :P

Searching for the answer to the question of "why do I see myself as a jack of all trades. master of none", I'd looked at myself..and I found that the answer is..i'd never really put all my heart and effort in things that I do,well..maybe except for my studies and also my k-pop (dbsk) addiction..hehe..other things that I've mentioned,I just did it for fun or rather like..saje nak try..

I believe, for someone to be good at something..he or she needs to put his or her heart in it, go further than anyone else..not to mention to have the talent (which is something I don't think I have..huhu) I'm yet to find something that I enjoy doing it and can be good at it..well..something other than the profession I'll be joining,a pharmacist. Maybe any of you guys can suggest something to me,right?(other than cooking please..^_^)

On a sidenote (betoi ka ayat ni?), I'll be going back to Kuantan tomorrow~~*sigh*blum pack brg lg ni haa…aigoo..not feeling quite ready for classes, lab reports and all other head-spinning-stuffs! Tp..itu la lumrah hidup seorg student en?bile lg nak experience sume tu kalo bukan skrang?kan2?:D

Salam ramadhan(yg hanya tinggal lg beberape hari je lg)~



Long time no see,right?Hmm..nak bagi alasan ape ek for my absence from this blog?byk sbnrnye..internet slow..busy study :p..takde idea..malas pon tergolong jugak kot..hehe



Alhamdulillah,i've arrived home safely last Saturday night..and now enjoying the warmth and comfort of my home..ape omputih kate tu..ha,"home sweet home" gitu la~^_^ and dah sakan ber'shopping' da pon td(beli tudung je). As expected,mmg rmai laaa umat manusia yg sibuk membeli-belah..sesak yg amat la hai~



Di samping kesibukan kita nak prepare for the coming aidilfitri, kita kenalah jugak ingt..dgn ketibaannya Aidilfitri,maknanya da tibalah saat kita berpisah dgn Ramadhan..frankly speaking,Ramadhan tahun ni x begitu terasa suasananye..bagi saya la..maybe bcoz of the new environment..before this i've always spend my ramadhan with my family (except for time kat UIA PJ la). Di UIA Kuantan, solat tarawikhnya hanya di musolla, since masjidnya still under construction..but actually,that shouldn't be the reason for not feeling the 'roh' or 'spirit' of Ramadhan..mungkin kerana sy menempuhi Ramadhan tanpa sebrg persediaan, mungkin jugak kerana sibuk dgn tugas sbg student..tp alhamdulillah..ade je aktiviti2 yg dijlnkn sempena Ramadhan,cuma sy x berpeluang nk pegi semua la..huhu


Dan alhamdulillah..dgn tibanya Aidilfitri ni, maknanye tibalah cuti ala2 mid sem break gitu la..sbbnye,sedar x sedar, da tgh2 sem da rupenye..inilah akibatnye xde exam mid-sem..haha~insya Allah,i'll try to spend my break wisely,meaning..kne wat assignment..kemas bilik..jalan2 cari makan kat area Bangi and Kajang ni *coughFadybawakcough*..hehe..study?hmm..dlm pertimbangan..hahahaha..juz kidding..of coz la kne include gak..cume,xde jaminan cam Courts Mammoth la..:p





Orait...maka,selesailah bebelan saya for this time..to be continued ye^^..before that,SALAM AIDILFITRI buat pengunjung2 blog ni..MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN YEEE..


insya Allah,kalo umur panjang..bole bertemu dgn Ramadhan yg akan datang,dan semoga Ramadhan yg akan dtg tu lebih baik drpd yg sblm2nye..

Sekadar perkongsian untuk ingatan bersama..

~Sahl bin Abdullah berkata "Tanda cintakan Allah adalah cintakan al-Quran. Tanda cintakan al-Quran adalah cintakan Nabi s.a.w. Tanda cintakan Nabi s.a.w adalah cintakan sunnah Baginda. Tanda cintakan sunnah Baginda adalah cintakan ahikrat. Tanda cintakan akhirat adalah membenci dunia. Tnda membenci dunia adalah tidak mengambil daripada dunia melainkan kadar yg mencukupi untuk sara hidup."~

Anyone missed me?Hmm...i guess no~*pout* :D
It's already official that i'll go to Kuantan to continue my studies next week (together with Rai and the others :) )...this means that there's less than a week for me to be at home..to be leisurely (and boring-ly)'goyang kaki',doing more or less nothing..haha~
But i guess those times will be over soon..and soon enough i'll start the old routine in study life..or not..coz i have no idea how my upcoming study life will be~
For that,i feel nervous yet excited..curious yet quite..scared?hehe...Hmmm..the best thing is,doa la semoga dipermudahkan segala urusan,kan?^^

Well,one a of the things that i need to do before continuing my studies is....make new resolution~pasang azam baru la...then,hopefully i can do much better that i did during my school time and matrics. :D aja!!

i would to say thank you to EVERYONE who had make me smile..though i know a simple "thank you" will never be enough~

Last Sunday,saya sekeluarga(minus my kakak and abang la) pergi ke Sabak Bernam,sebab mak saya ade kerja di sana..
Hmm..sbnrnya dah lame jugak kami tak ke Sabak Bernam..dulu2 selalu la jugak,coz my dad's sister tinggal kat sana. But,to tell you the truth,Sabak Bernam bukannya ade ape2 sgt..cuma ade bendang sawah (or is it sawah bendang??),jagung yg sedap,buah2an,pantai (bukan pantai berpasir la tapi) and mee udang banjir!ehh..tetiba rase cam byk jugakla benda ade kat Sabak Bernam ni :P
I'm not sure if everyone is familiar with this mee udang banjir,but i was not..pernah tgk kat dlm TV je..hehe.so,on Monday rsenye,kami ke Bagan Nakhoda Omar,tempat tu boleh kira cam pantai la sbnrnye..tapi time tu tgh surut :(

Kat depan pantai tu,ade restoran,situ la yang menjual mee udang banjir nye

Ni version yang kat kedai yg saya makan tu la..tak tau la kalau anda semua penah makan yg lain pnye version ke :D..udang dia,per serving..adik saya kira,ade 8 ekor tu~ade yg besar,ade yg sederhana la..but all in all..i love it..sooodaaap ^^huhu..tetiba rase nak makan lagiiiiiii..

Ok,sekian saje bebelan saya mengenai mee udang banjir..kecoh skit sbb first time makan..hahaha..hmmm...lepas ni nak try ape plak ekk??

STARS...

You can't pluck them from the skies for your own keepsake...
You shouldn't hide them with the many lights from your houses..
You musn't outshine them with flashy fireworks...
Because, stars, like other beautiful things created by God, are meant to be shared..





















>>Stars..they are beautiful,aren't they?But you have to be in a very dark place where there is no light pollution (meaning lampu2 jalan and buildings) to really enjoy their beauty..I still remember..we were on our way back from Miri to KL..the flight was delayed,so only at almost 2 am i think,we were able to board the plane...i was sitting at the seat beside the window (my fave seat!).when i looked out of the window...Subhanallah~~the stars..so bright,so beautiful...i wish i can have that view again~~
>>Actually..when i was in Form 2 or Form 3 if i'm not mistaken..my ambition was to be an astronomer..coz i love stars and planets!and i'm amazed at how vast our universe is..humans can't possibly explore it completely~though now i already chose being a pharmacist as my future career (insya Allah),i didn't plan to bury my passion and love for astronomy..i hope i can learn more about it little by little.plus,i'm planning to have my own telescope too!(bile da ade duit nnt la..bile da keje le maknenye*sigh*)..
>>Semua ciptaan Allah Taala ade fungsi dan hikmahnye kan...so,for me,bintang2 tu bukan hanya hiasan langit..tp jugak salah satu tanda kekuasaan-Nya..Subhanallah~















p/s: Today,i went to Pavillion for the 1st time..memang sahla that place is not a suitable place for me to do any kind of shopping..unless i'm planning to burn holes on my pocket!(or..wallet)mane taknye..mostly brg2 kat situ hargenye 3 digit dong!tu blom masuk kedai yg saya tak brani nak masuk..but the place itself is nice..lawa la..kalo nak lepak2 (not shopping ye) bole la kot..anyways,tonight is barbeque time!yippe~~