Ustazah

Kalau mengikut Kamus Dewan Edisi Keempat terbitan Dewan Bahasa dan Pustaka yang ada tercongok kat rak buku gabak dalam bilik ni, Ustazah tu maknanya; guru agama (perempuan).

Okay,tu cuma muqaddimah je..

I couldn't quite remember how many times I've been in the situation, but there's this one time that I remembered the most.
I was at a hospital, nak melawat ex-classmate time kat CFS PJ who got into an accident. Me and my friends entered the elevator and i saw a bunch of kids kat dalam lif tu with their parents..or was it..relatives? -shrugs- couldn't remember.eheh. And as they saw us, i heard one of the kids said to the other, "Wahh..ramainya ustazah kat sini.." with a hint of sarcasm.

To be completely and honestly honest..what the kid had said irked me..or in another word, i felt annoyed.
Oh..before i continue, maybe i should tell anyone who bothered to read this that i wear a 50" tudung,sometime 55"..both tudung Akel and tudung bawal..and so do most of my friends who were with me that day. So..you kinda get the idea why the kid had called us ustazah..right? :D and oh..we were wearing baju kurungs and jubah that day if i were not mistaken, sebab baru balik dr kelas.hahaaa
ok..sambung cerita..

Irked and annoyed (same je la tu) were what i felt...not because i dislike the title 'ustazah' or something..but because what i had in mind was, the kid was being sarcastic, seeing us wearing tudung besar & berbaju kurung macam tu.....OR..maybeee...i might be thinking too much at that time..ntah2 budak tu inesen je cakap camtu becoz in the kid's mind..tudung besar/labuh + baju kurung/jubah = ustazah kat sekolah. MAYBE the kid (i keep on using 'the kid' bcoz i couldn't remember whether it's a girl or a boy.i have TERRIBLE MEMORY.oh yes.) didn't mean to be sarcastic at all..maybe it's just me being paranoid..just maybe.
So, the point is..
I've come to realize that i shouldn't feel annoyed even if budak tu memang saje sarkastik that time..i could have taken it as a du'a that one day I (and maybe my friends as well) can actually become an ustazah..an ustazah for my friends..an ustazah at home,for my family,my children in the future..bukanlah maksudnya nak ngaja agama secara formal macam kat sekolah tu..but maybe to teach and share any religious knowledge (read: Islamic knowledge) which can lead us straight to His blessing and jannah. Insya Allah.

But then again...another confession..
Since i started my schooldays..i've been surrounded by people who have the same 'fashion' or 'style' like me (buat2 paham la ye), dari sekolah rendah sampai le uni. So, what i've been wearing was never an odd thing when i'm with them. But as i grow older...and yes,i'm definitely OLDER now, bila dah lagi banyak berjalan2 kat luar,more exposed to other people..i can't help but to notice that there are some people who'd still stare and look weirdly at me like i'm some kind of..er..alien?Sigh.
But (bape kali but dah ni..hahaha)..no worries!i shall prevail! eh..tetibe :P
Semoga Allah Taala beri kekuatan untuk terus istiqamah dan berusaha untuk memperbaiki diri..coz i know, i'm still lacking a lot..A LOT..

Imam Muslim meriwayatkan di dalam Shahihnya dari jalan Abu Hurairah radhiyallahu’anhu, dia berkata; Rasulullah shallallahu ‘alaihi wa sallam bersabda, “Islam datang dalam keadaan asing. Dan ia akan kembali menjadi asing sebagaimana kedatangannya. Maka beruntunglah orang-orang yang asing itu.” (HR. Muslim [145] dalam Kitab al-Iman.Syarh Muslim, 1/234).

Semoga kita sama2 tergolong dalam golongan orang2 yg asing tu..amin~